I can't live with out him...nor do I want to

My mind has been consumed lately by someone near and dear to me. I can not seem to get him off my mind nor do I want to. I have been in love with him from the day we met and I still am. I met him in Junior high school and he has literally changed my life. I can honestly say I am a better person for knowing him. We spend a lot of time together and my husband doesn't seem to mind at all, as a matter of fact, he introduced my husband and I. So he understands how important he is to me and sees it as not only healthy but important to my life to do so on a regular basis. In other words it isn't a hidden relationship by any means.

The other day he and I went on a walk together and it felt so good and liberating to tell him everything I have been struggling with as well as all the things I am over joyed about. He listened with out saying a word to me nor did he judge me. The thing is we are so connected that he really didn't have to say a word to me...I just knew and so did he. When I was finished sharing and unloading everything onto him he just smiled and gave me the biggest hug and told me how much he cared and loved me. He shared some words of wisdom from his father whom I admire the same as I do him.

He shared something with me on this walk that touched my heart. He told me how much his father has wanted me and my family to be a part of his family from day one. What a feeling that was to hear from him, that I am wanted. I am going to be honest here I have loved this man from the moment I met him and he told me he loved me before I even met him. He has given me advice that has protected me from harm and has been there when no one else could be. He has been on call 24-7 for me no matter what. He has wiped the tears from my eyes and whispered in my ear that everything is going to be just fine. I have voids that have been completely filled by him alone that not even my husband can fill. He is incredible and the only true JOY of my life. Don't get me wrong, I have happiness but this man brings me joy that never leaves no matter what is going on in this troubled world... through him and because of him I have complete JOY.

On our walk he shared with me that "A wise man's heart directs him toward the right but a foolish man's heart directs him towards the left." Just as our heart can direct us towards wrong, it can also direct us towards what is right. It pretty much depends on what we put into it.

This has really made me think more about what kind of things I am allowing into my life and putting into my heart. Every time I close my bible for the day the war begins with in. Every thing around us has a way of pulling us away from what we know to be what is truly right. With the movies we watch, the music we listen to the conversations we have with one another and the events we allow ourselves to be a part of, just because it is what the majority sees as fit.

Do you see now why this friend is so important to my daily life and why I can't wait to call him the minute I wake up in the mornings, talk with him and listen to his words of wisdom every single day of my life? I am so glad I am married to someone who is secure enough to get this and allows me to be with him as much as I like. After all, my friend has made our marriage what it is today.

I praise you and thank you Jesus for being my true best friend and wanting the best for me and my family. If only I could be more like you.


enjoy =O)